Today marks the 301st post on the “WannaBet” blog, something I started on a lark nearly 10 years ago. This blog has come a long way since then. As have I.
Since all communication has purpose, the purpose of the blog
back then was to go hand-in-hand with the release of my first ebook about
Poker. “All the trades” said that in
order to promote your wares, “ya gotta have a blog,” so I did. I wasn’t hard to convince, since I like to
write. Always have, though I haven’t
always put myself out there.
Those of you who knew me back when might recall that I was a
very shy individual until about 8th grade when I did something very
stupid; I ran for class Vice President.
Really, I did, even though
(a) those things are always popularity
contests, not actually about who has the best “platform” or “ideas”,
(b) I knew
this, and
(c) I was very very unpopular.
Why yes, it was a disaster, and you’d think that would have shut me up
and locked me into a deep dungeon for years.
It almost did, but then I got the idea to run for homeroom president in
9th grade and actually won.
How could this happen? Well, I
was only president for the first semester, because I agreed to share the position
with another non-cool-kid and we basically split the cool-kids vote so that
we’d win each time. We were math people
and we could add – we knew there were more uncool kids than cool kids in our
homeroom, and cool kids don’t do math.
But it wasn’t until I found out about radio in high school
that I really came out of my shell. I
still wasn’t cool, but I didn’t feel bad about myself anymore. Hell, I even tried out for a class play my
senior year, and that was something else (and I got a part, though not the one
I tried out for). Acting was different
than radio because in radio NO ONE SEES YOU and yet you still can communicate
with the audience. As an actor, everyone
sees you. Still, I didn’t wet myself, so
it turned out OK.
I never set the radio world on fire, but being in the
industry (briefly the first time) gave me more confidence, something I lacked
in spades. I matured enough to get a
job, start a career, get married*, the whole nine yards. One thing I began to do in my off-hours of
work (where ever I worked, in a variety of jobs) was write. Writing was like radio in that you could
communicate but people didn’t see you (so you could really put yourself out
there without fear). Of course, few
people (if any) saw any of what I wrote, but it felt good in a way that I
didn’t understand back then. Call it
cathartic if you will, but writing filled a need I didn’t know I had.
At some point my writing “skills” tiptoed into my work. I decided my memos at the bank no longer had
to be boring, so I spiced ‘em up so that people would actually READ them (isn’t
that the point?). I wrote about my memos
back in 2016 in this post here
if you’re interested, my point being that I had learned that the idea of
writing was to communicate EFFECTIVELY (even if it pissed off the brass at the
bank). I endeavored to improve my
writing skills, and broaden I wrote about.
From the bank to the university to being back in radio to
marketing research, I wrote all sorts of stuff.
Newsletters, memos, reports; and in each one I tried to use my “voice” –
speaking plainly, with a dash of humor, always trying to effectively get my
point across. I thought I succeeded well
enough.
But one day…I was facing complete unemployment, wondering
what in hell I’d do for a living, having gone through several “careers” and
facing another 15-20 years of my life before I could hope to retire. The answer?
WRITING! I did a bunch of
freelance work, was a reporter for a weekly paper in Boise, and discovered two
things:
(1) I loved to write, and
(2) there was no way in hell I could make
enough money by writing alone.
Fate
stepped in with a full-time job at the marketing research center, and then the
big change in life running the ice cream parlor, but all the time I kept
writing.
Not me. |
There have been noticeable gaps when I didn’t post anything
for months (in a couple of cases, more than a year). I’ve still been writing – mostly online
screeds or diatribes on social media (and all those attempts at novel writing). I realize now that the former was time
wasted, as I was actually trying to convince folks on the other side of their
folly using logic. Yeah, pretty stupid,
I know. You know how that turned
out. The tinfoil anti-antifa crowd
distains things like facts and evidence and lives for the slightly off-key
music that echoes inside their tiny heads.
I wrote a shitload of words, all for naught. I won’t make that mistake again, partly
because I have a block list that spans a couple of pages now. Better for my blood pressure, too.
So here I am babbling about, but that’s the great thing
about this blog. It’s free and you, the
reader, are always as free to reject what is written, just as I am free to
write whatever I please. I do aim to
please, but sometimes my aim is off. Like
being drunk in front of one of those tiny urinals.
Thank you for bearing with me these last 300 posts, and a warning: There will no doubt be more.
* yeah, sometime I’ll talk about my dating prowess (or lack
thereof), but I’ll have to be very very drunk to get that started. Don’t hold your breath.